Title of the Piece: The Fight

Painted at 3:52 p.m. on 2007-07-13

I almost put out a bulletin for a new sister this week. I was ready to write Gretl off… she apparently thinks Boyfriend needs to do more for me, that he has to make more of an effort to hang with my friends. She seems to think that since I made bad dating choices when I was 18 (that was 10 years ago, folks) that clearly I can’t make a better choice now. She mentioned Rudolph and how that was a bad decision, that was 3 years ago. She is convinced that since I used to like these other people and talk about them in a caring, nice way, that there is no way I can feel better and more confident about Boyfriend. She thinks that since I was trying to trick myself before into liking people that I’m doing that again. And for the record, she is WRONG. I’ve never, ever loved a boy before. I *thought* I loved Boy, but I knew he wasn’t right for me. I knew there was no way I’d ever trust him, therefore I could never date him. Anyway, she really pissed me off b/c this whole time I thought she liked him, but she’s basically been faking it. There is no reason not to like him… he takes good care of me, I get to take care of him, he’s nice, smart, basically has everything I want in someone. She refuses to believe that. She started yapping about him hanging out with my friends, which is funny for a couple of reasons: 1) I barely hang out with my friends b/c we all live so far from each other. Most of my good pals are work friends, so if we hang out, it’s after work… and he usually comes with; 2) he’s been attending everyone’s birthday/housewarming parties with me; 3) I never see her boyfriend out, not sure why she tried to play that card. And then she mentioned how he doesn’t really talk when certain other friends come out. That’s how he is… he’s shy, it takes him a while to warm up and get chatty. And that’s the other thing! He and Gretl would always talk and laugh and get along, I really don’t know what she’s crabbing about. Oh, she also has issue with how we started dating. I asked that she please start noticing the nice things he does for me and quit picking out the little things that she takes as bad. God it makes me so mad… she’s kind of making stuff up, I think. She sees what she wants to see and won’t listen to me when I tell her why she’s wrong. Oh, another thing- she said “I never see him paying! Why do you always pay for the cab?” and I say “well, it’s easier for 2 people to haggle over money instead of 3, so he just pays me when we get inside. …or we take turns buying each other drinks” and she refuses to believe that that is true and it makes me so mad. It’s like she’s calling me a liar. Ugh! We’re fine now, we’re sisters and we have to be ok, but it really, really pissed me off. It makes me sad for Boyfriend, too. He says he’s OK, but I don’t know, the thought of his feelings being hurt makes me sad. I’m wondering if something else is going on with her. I don’t want to think that she’s been faking it the whole time…

Something else that I think is a little weird- she thinks that there is someone else out there that’s better for me. So I asked “what, do you think there’s someone else out there better than your boyfriend for you?” and she said “yeah, I think there is always someone better for everyone. I think there is someone better for him, too”. That doesn’t make sense to me. If you think there is someone better then why are you basically wasting your time with the person you’re with?

Anyway, Boyfriend and I are a-ok. I think this is the one time in my life where I haven’t second guessed myself and I feel great about it. I love the Boyfriend so much and if Gretl doesn’t want me to grow up then too frickin’ bad for her.

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