Title of the Piece: News!

Painted at 1:43 p.m. on 2008-01-11

I keep having dreams of thanking my therapist for everything she did for me. Case in point- Boy texted me over the holidays. Remember when I would’ve been SUPER excited to hear from him and read into it that “oh he’s thinking about me, he must like me!!” Well, no more. I guess it’s been a while since I cared whether or not he contacts me, but over the holidays it really hit me- it doesn’t matter to me when he does. He texted me on Christmas night. I got it, read it and waited over a day to respond with a really cheery “Christmas is still going!! I’m having a great time in SC. Lots of relaxing, great weather and wine drinking!! How was yours?” He responded immediately with “cool. It was ok. Just hung with the fam” and that’s been it. Maybe it’s because I’m over him that I don’t feel the need to talk to him anymore, but I don’t know, I guess I just want to thank her for helping me stay strong and realize that when the right person comes along, he won’t matter to me anymore. And it’s not that I dislike him, I’m just over him. I think he’s probably the same person he’s always been and I feel like I’ve grown- a lot.

On to the Boyfriend- he got into school in Atlanta! The reality is hitting me and it’s a little scary. I’m excited, but scared. I feel settled into my life up here, I have a great group of friends, a job that I don’t mind so much, blah blah blah and now, providing he gets financial aid, we’re going to move. He admitted last night that he’s a little scared, too. It’s a total life-change, but I have no desire to do a long distance relationship and he doesn’t either. This is such a big deal! We wouldn’t move until August or so, so we have a while, but still I’m a little anxious now!

I hope I get to leave work early today. It is Friday after all.

Starts with a Brush then comes a stroke.

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